At all times, in all things and in all places

Mother Nature's Bleeding Heart

No small task, let me tell you. As a mother, wife, daughter, sister, neighbor, friend, employee and customer, I find it rather difficult to always remember to stand as a witness of Christ at all times, in all things and in all places. I lose my temper on a regular basis. I have little mercy to give when it comes to people I don't understand. I try to be good but find myself wanting, always. And, in the midst of all of these inadequacies, I find myself surrounded by people and things who remind me to try harder, not to give up and to keep going. Wassup with that? oooooeeee Wassup with that? Was SUP with that? (SNL reference)

Dani

Today is one year since my little angel returned to Heavenly Father. I miss her so much! In life's ironies and funny twists and turns, I was starting to feel very sad this morning; my thoughts were all going rather negatively until I read something that my childhood idle, William Shatner, said. And I quote, "If you are healthy, if you're in a joyful state yourself, then all of life is funny. Taking the irony of what our final fate is from the very beginning - when you are born you become aware you're going to die - that awareness is itself absurd, so that given the right attitude, all of life can be humorous. It's something to aim for." Isn't it funny that you can find comfort in the strangest of places? For me, today, it was in the USA Weekend publication.

Two Months Tomorrow

Alexandra - now 8 weeks old - has her two month appointment on Wednesday. It seems like an eternity has gone by since I last posted - not that I've done all that much, just that I have been so removed from computer-land. Alex is asleep on my lap right now and I'm loving every second of it.

The pharmacist asked me tonight how my babies were. :o(

Danielle was amazing. I told her that I loved her all the time. Dr. Anderson reminded me that there aren't many people who can say that they've been loved every single day of their life. Danielle was loved SO much and she loved SO very much in return. I think that how she lived and for as long as she lived tells us all how much she loved us. I'm so grateful that I was able to spend those beautiful crazy eight days with her and I'm also grateful for all of you and your support and love.

Pray for Danielle

This is a picture that the nurses in the NICU took of the babies - Danielle on the right, Alexandra on the left. The girls are seven days old today!

Danielle needs everyone to pray for her so that she can feel the peace she needs to be able to let go and go home to Heavenly Father. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for us. I love you all very much.

Not long now

Today's the day, my loves.

Baby Shower

Bobby's daughters and daughter-in-laws and Becky came over last night and threw me a baby shower. It was a blast. They were too kind and way too generous. I had the girls bet on how much the babies will weigh. I'm hoping for five pounders myself - we'll see who is closest. Feel free to place your bets before it's too late. It's just 20 hours away now (they're supposed to be taking me in at 9:30 tomorrow morning)!! Unbelievable that it's so close finally.

Valarie hopes for a couple of blonde/blue eyed sisters. Bobby assures me that the babies will have hair and that they'll have blue eyes (Valarie was a baldy). Soon we'll know!!

Time on my hands

I have now completed blankets for all three of my girls! Danielle's is pink with green and Alexandra's is green with pink. Valarie's is also green with pink but a lot bigger. I have also made several little hats for the babies - thanks to Dr. Anderson's sweet wife for showing me how.

Yesterday was the last day I had with Tammy. Tammy has been there for me since my first day in the hospital - eight weeks ago. She has helped me keep my sanity more than any other nurse. The days Tammy took care of me were my funnest days. I will miss her! But not too much because her son Parker is Val's age and goes to the same school; so I'll still get to see her.

Roshannah came to visit me today! What a fun surprise!! And she brought me Reese's PB cups! Wooo-hooo!! I needed me some more of them. :o)