Two Months Tomorrow

Alexandra - now 8 weeks old - has her two month appointment on Wednesday. It seems like an eternity has gone by since I last posted - not that I've done all that much, just that I have been so removed from computer-land. Alex is asleep on my lap right now and I'm loving every second of it.

The pharmacist asked me tonight how my babies were. :o(

Danielle was amazing. I told her that I loved her all the time. Dr. Anderson reminded me that there aren't many people who can say that they've been loved every single day of their life. Danielle was loved SO much and she loved SO very much in return. I think that how she lived and for as long as she lived tells us all how much she loved us. I'm so grateful that I was able to spend those beautiful crazy eight days with her and I'm also grateful for all of you and your support and love.

Pray for Danielle

This is a picture that the nurses in the NICU took of the babies - Danielle on the right, Alexandra on the left. The girls are seven days old today!

Danielle needs everyone to pray for her so that she can feel the peace she needs to be able to let go and go home to Heavenly Father. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for us. I love you all very much.

Not long now

Today's the day, my loves.

Baby Shower

Bobby's daughters and daughter-in-laws and Becky came over last night and threw me a baby shower. It was a blast. They were too kind and way too generous. I had the girls bet on how much the babies will weigh. I'm hoping for five pounders myself - we'll see who is closest. Feel free to place your bets before it's too late. It's just 20 hours away now (they're supposed to be taking me in at 9:30 tomorrow morning)!! Unbelievable that it's so close finally.

Valarie hopes for a couple of blonde/blue eyed sisters. Bobby assures me that the babies will have hair and that they'll have blue eyes (Valarie was a baldy). Soon we'll know!!

Time on my hands

I have now completed blankets for all three of my girls! Danielle's is pink with green and Alexandra's is green with pink. Valarie's is also green with pink but a lot bigger. I have also made several little hats for the babies - thanks to Dr. Anderson's sweet wife for showing me how.

Yesterday was the last day I had with Tammy. Tammy has been there for me since my first day in the hospital - eight weeks ago. She has helped me keep my sanity more than any other nurse. The days Tammy took care of me were my funnest days. I will miss her! But not too much because her son Parker is Val's age and goes to the same school; so I'll still get to see her.

Roshannah came to visit me today! What a fun surprise!! And she brought me Reese's PB cups! Wooo-hooo!! I needed me some more of them. :o)

To my baby girls

What a miracle you have been!! From the time I found out about you on March 31st (11 weeks) to now - 33 weeks - so many wonderful things have happened in my life. I only dreamt that we would make it this far together. And here we are. I am in awe of the wonderful blessings you have brought into my life. Your Daddy and I have never been closer. Valarie can't wait to see you. My neighbors who I used to take for granted have become great friends and confidants. Some people say that it is not until you have to go through something really hard that you find out who your true friends are. If that is true, then I had no idea how many friends I truly had. So many people care about you and hope and pray for the best for you. We all love you very much and can't wait to see you and hold you once you are born. Life is a beautiful thing - with all of it's ups and downs. Like I've said before, I'm the luckiest to have been blessed with you precious babies.

One Week Left!

I don't know how many of you remember the movie, Airplane, but I remember it fondly. There's a lady in the movie who gets a bit hysterical when they encounter problems in flight. A whole line of people wait for their chance to try to get her to calm down - some with their fists, others with bats and belts. It's pretty funny because it's not real but, in my current situation, that's about how I feel at times. I need a whole line of people to get me to calm down and relax and wait the seven days I have left to wait to see these babies. I must say, the hospital hasn't been that bad but it hasn't been that great either. I've been glad that I haven't had to deal with the extreme heat of the summer. A few of you have first hand experience with how batty I got with the little heat I had to endure prior to being in the hospital. I'm glad too that I haven't had to do the daily chores around the house at home. That was getting hard to keep up with. I have to admit my jealousy though of people outside walking or running along. They don't know how lucky they are to not have to be strapped to a hospital bed 7/24 (as Steve would say). A few friends from work stopped by yesterday to surprise me with a visit. It was great to see them and to feel of their friendship. Afterwards, Aynn, my professional photographer :o), stopped by for a photo shoot. We had fun trying to take pregnant pictures of me. I'm grateful for her and for her enthusiasm. As for this last week with my little girls growing inside me - I feel happiness that we've made it this far and sorrow that I'm going to have to let them go on their own. Being pregnant is a wonderful experience. You're never as close to another person. I can remember being sad that I wouldn't be pregnant with Valarie very much longer (that was before her due date and the ensuing two weeks that passed after her due date that I still waited for her to come). I remember thinking that I'd never again be able to be as close to her as I was then. Now, with this pregnancy and all of it's surprises, I am again sad to lose the closeness - more so now because I know what my babies face once they're born. In a lot of ways, I'm not ready to let them go even though I know that I must. If I could, I'd hold onto them forever.